I want to run away. I have been telling Amy that she should, but I am the one that really should. I should just pack up my camera and start driving. Yes I am in one of those weird moods. The ones where you don’t want to be alone but you don’t want anyone around. You want to be held but can’t stand to be that close to another person. The time when the fear of nothing is better and the feeling of there must be more are perfectly matched, staring at each other while sitting on a see-saw. Neither of them wanting to move an eyelash, shooting hate at each other, and knowing that a single mistimed breath could send the other into the lead. And I want nothing more to sleep so much that I die and wake in a few hundred years ago, well rested and ready to take on a new world. This is also the time when I will dream of grandeur and only die in apathetic thirst. I think I will go to bed knowing that I more than likely will be better in the morning.
We all pretty much go through that… in slightly different ways…. it will pass…. but a Mature attitude will get you through it the best….
I hate this time of year so much.
but I also love it.
Andrew don’t say that to me because I might actually do it. You don’t know how badly I would like to do that…..but I can’t. I’m not ready.
I was feeling that exact same thing yesterday, the same day you where. I had a really bad day. So hey, at least you know your not alone. But I feel better today and I pray you do too. Love you, Meliss
Dude. That was totally an emo-rawk song. I love it. Second verse! and the chorus is jsut you whispering “It’s raining again. I want to runaway.” Then it breaks into this awesome post-hardcore kind of sound. 🙂 Like “The Wedding”…. then throw some underoath with a little bit of “It’s dangerous business…”…. the part “I’m drowning in my sea”…. yeah…. that’s the new song. The chords of the main go D major – F# minor – A major – C# Minor – E Major…. repeat. It’ll work!! 😀
awww. i’d pat you on the back but i’m not there. i send my smiles and stupid jokes to cheer you up. just wait a while as i have them post-marked…
Well I won’t hold you for the sole fact I don’t want to be close to you. Good post.
It’s always better in the morning. Even God thinks so.
Andrew, your a warrior in the Spirit pray and ask others to pray for you also. We don’t have to take this, we have authourity over it.
For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the world’s rulers, of the darkness of this age, against spiritual wickedness in high places.