Anyone like my disappearing act?

You are afraid?
I am.
Why?
It means that I give up everything.
Everything?
My hopes, my dreams. My wife, my house.
If you are afraid, why do it?
Cause.
Why?
I have to?
You do? What makes you say that?
I feel it.
Tell me more.
Can’t you feel it?
No. If you don’t want to do it then don’t.
I have to. I feel it. It scares me, so I have to do it.
If it scares you why do you have to do it?
It will be powerful. It will change the world.
You sound rather dramatic.
Don’t you feel it? The calling?
To do what?
To give everything, to dance with the One.
Dance?
I feel it, just beyond my finger tips.
The One?
No, the shift.
The shift?
To the Otherside.
Death?
No. Yes. Well. I don’t know. Can’t you feel it?
No. What is it like?
Over there, it doesn’t matter. Over there I am with Him, the One.
God? You sure you aren’t talking about death?
To dance with the One, nothing else matters, everything becomes the illusion that it is.
Everything is an illusion?
Are you stupid? Don’t you understand? He is what makes everything as it is. It is for His Glory and pleasure that he made us. Everything is made. The One isn’t. He was never made. Can’t you see what that means? He is the reason, He is why. Everything else is a subplot. Everything thing else is high school drama. Everything else is nothing.
Nothing? Just a subplot? What about other people? They could be starving, that isn’t an illusion.
But it is. What is real? Your body? Your soul? He is real and everything else just fades away.
You are calloused and cold.
Dancing is amazing, you change. Nothing is important but Him. His eyes, His thoughts, His cares. I maybe calloused and cold, but it doesn’t matter, because He isn’t.
You are insane. Have you danced with ‘The One” yet?
Compassion that destroys. Can’t you hear it calling?

Well, God likes me.

So I woke up late, went through the day tired. Drove to the bank and drove back in 100 degree heat for a lunch break. Then after work, I went to Pinecrest. I bought a fly fishing rod and reel on Saturday. And for the first time that I went fishing, I actually caught a fish. A fish! My first time. Fly fishing is so different. In normal fishing, your lure is the weight that you throw and the line follows. Fly fishing the line is what you throw and the fly is along for the ride. It is crazy. I won’t say that it is hard, but it will take a while to master.

Then I went to my dad’s house to try and pick up a check for China. Which he gave me. And my Grandma gave me a check, too. For four-hundred dollars.

I went to Wallyworld and Steven made me the best burrito I have ever had there. The lettuce really makes it. Yum!

Here are some pictures from last night.

Andrew is done dancing with Olivia, so he sends Bonam in…

Bonam doesn’t want to dance, so he throws a punch…

Liv takes him down…

So… $959.51 left.

I am tired. It has been a long day. Church, China meeting, swimming, Wal-mart, Children’s Carnival, then a concert with Rustic, Innovation, and The 95 Theses. I am tired.

Good Night.